marilyn the optimist, trevor the pessimist

ha. havent posted in this in about two years. well i'm about to now. i was talking to trevor today and he said "well, when aren't together anymore...." Wow. that hurt. I mean all this week i've been thinking about how i've actually started to care about him, like really care, and he goes and says that. i mean, i only let people in who i consider extremely trustworthy and he says that. how could he say that?????  i mean, yea, in the back of my mind, realistically, i know, trevor and I are probly going to break up. most probably. but DAMN IT! i'm an optimist. always have been, always will be. i dont need to hear that he considers this temporary, transitory.

i mean, breakup is just something you dont talk about. you know that its statistically going to happen, but you dont assume the worst, you assume the best, until all  you can do is assume is the worst

and i dont let people in who i think are just going to leave my life again. the people i care about, i know they'll always be there, i know that they feel the same. but with that, i felt like he didnt. like he thinks its just some lighthearted thing. although he did add, "although it may be in a couple of years.." but still. that's almost worse. okay, you're gonna fuck around with my feelings for a couple years, get me really attatched to you, then dump me? like you never cared all along? thanks.

but... whatever i guess, if i care about him, then i cant let this get in the way. its just one silly sentence. so i need to forgive him and just let it go. by tomorrow night.

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